Super Soul Sunday with Barbara Brown Taylor

May 24, 2015

I know what you are thinking, where have I been lately, why does she keep saying she is going to write more and then doesn't. Why is it getting longer and longer between posts?

There has been a lot going on in my life that I need to concentrate on, and take time for myself to heal. In the past couple weeks there has been 8 people who tragically were taken from this world way too soon. One of them was a very close friend of mine's son. It's so hard to watch someone in so much pain, you never know what to do or how much to do.. the most important thing is just to be there for that person.

I was recently watching "Super Soul Sunday" which happens to be one of my new favourite shows. Oprah interviewed Barbara Brown Taylor on "Darkness", and how to deal with it. I thought it was very fitting for everything we were going through in our small community.. some pointers I took from the episode:

People will not remember what you said, or what you did but they will never forget how you make them feel.

Give people permission to feel how they are feeling.

And then at the end of the episode Oprah asked the question; What is giving you life?

Why is it such a hard question? I've said it before... people get into auto pilot mode and they don't really "live" life, they just exist. I seriously think that most days what was giving me life was the promise of tomorrow, a better day, a better sleep, more me time, etc. But I keep forgetting to think about this moment, this breath, this now. I live each day hoping that tomorrow the kids are better, and some days they are, but I forget that they will only be this age once, and they grow up... maybe all it took was a little getaway to Toronto for me to realize this, but it's so true!

Anyway, if you are reading this can you answer the question; What is giving you life?

Washing Dishes

Apr 29, 2015

I read a super short clipping in the November issue of "O" (Oprah's Magazine), and it really stuck. It was titled "Your Sinkful of Dirty Dishes". Basically it stated, "when you wash the dishes, the dishes also wash you." That simple quote hit home for me so deeply.

I take such great joy in doing my dishes, and feel so much better after I do them. I try not to rush, usually its my last chore in the day. I buy dish soap that I enjoy the scent of, maybe even light a candle and just really take the time to scrub every last morsel of food off my dishes. I think about things letting them pass through my mind, but not really concentrating on any of them. I let go of anything bad that happened during the day, I concentrate on every breath, letting each in breath fill me up and I thank myself for taking this time for me.

I recently came across this picture and thought it was fitting.

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I've really been struggling in my life lately to find that happy work/life/motherhood/family balance. I'm lucky that I get a full year of maternity leave, but I still do some stuff on the side as well as write this blog, and I'm still there for my family and kids when they need me. I've been overwhelmed lately trying to decide what needs to be done, and what doesn't.

I send big M to daycare one day a week still, and my in-laws take him one day. I generally spend one of those days cleaning, and one focusing on work stuff. The rest of the time is family time. If something comes up I'm making the effort to put it off until one of the days big M is gone and I can devote a nap or two just to that. My blog tends to fall on the back burner, and I feel like I have so many ideas bubbling in my head that I need to get out...

I want to write so many posts.. recipes.. take amazing pictures.. I know it will come eventually but for now I'm just going to concentrate on the little things and make sure I wash my dishes every night so I can be a better person the next day ;)

"Oh Motherhood"

Apr 21, 2015

Oh my has time ever slipped away from me. I feel like it has been forever since I've posted, and well, let's face it, it has been. I've been busy with my two littles that call me "Mom". 

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Is it just me or does motherhood drain you and leave you absolutely exhausted by the end of the day, but yet all you just want to do is stay up and catch up on your tv shows and Facebook feed? Where do you find the time for you during the day? Even now as I write this my littlest one is in her high chair squishing banana mush into her hair, while her big brother is at daycare for the day. I've been so lucky to be able to keep Maddox in daycare. He needs the social interaction, and I need the break sometimes. He is getting better though, he's almost 3 and he just started sleeping through the night finally, and in his own bed even! We make a point to get outside every day and it does us all good. 

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There is something to be said about fresh air, bubbles and giggles..

I've really been having a hard time with my depression the last few months and have actually felt like I was just in survival mode, not actually living my life the way I want. I'm starting to get out of that rut now, and I honestly think it was partially winter blues, mixed with a bit of post baby depression. I was really beating myself up about not being active, not spending enough time with each little, not being there for my husband and not being true to myself and giving myself time. I've been having horrible headaches/migraines and have finally felt like they are under control and I don't feel "fuzzy" all day.

So with that being said, and hopefully all bad yucky feelings behind me, I'm hoping to get back to blogging and being back to my crafty self. I've got a tonne of recipes to share, stories to tell and favourite items to fill you in on! Just hang tight while I get stuff schedules and find time to finish my posts here and there :)

Talk soon!
Renee
 

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